But, of course, the greatest blessing of all--without whom none of my other blessings would exist is Edwin the Bee, who sits upon His lotus flower near my Sacred Garden's gate. For Edwin is My Father...and also my sister Zoe's Father. Zoe and I are actually twins, by the way. I'm not sure any of you knew that, but it's true. I bring this up because I've never known myself to have a mother. And that never troubled me in the least. You see, things are very strange and different in Interterrestria...many things tend to simply BE rather than to be born (myself being one of those things). Beginnings and endings are mostly foreign concepts in my beloved Xanadu Forest, aside from games, stories, songs, and lively moon-greetings at the Sacred Pub! I digress. What follows is the story of how that all changed...as I slumbered peacefully upon my Persian rug one very fine moon-greeting.
So I mentioned how my sister the River speaks to me when I sleep. And how she always speaks so gently. Her words had never once woken me from my sleep...that's how gentle they had always been. Until this one particular moon-greeting. Her words were not harsh in the least, of course, but she called me to wake. She called me to come see her now by her River's bank, and she told me that there was a very special guest waiting to meet me there. Then my dear sister Zoe assured me there was no cause for alarm, and that I should not fear the presence of this mysterious visitor. Certainly I trusted my own precious twin sister, so I didn't hesitate at all in waking and shaking off the dust of sweet slumber.
As I walked down the path toward my sister and a mysterious guest, I became quite conscious of just how silent the forest was...not so much as a peep or a rustle of flower, leaf, or grass. I greeted my cousin the moon and walked slowly into the trees, and down the sacred path. I felt warm inside--comforted. It turned out to be a very good thing that my sister had warned me not to fear the visitor's presence, for certainly I would have been quite intimidated at the very least. For, the silhouette that stood before me as I came out of the trees and into the view of my twin sister's bank was massive, and wore an equally massive cloak. I could see no details of the figure at all until I stepped completely out of the trees and into the moon's light. And even then I saw only the fabric of the cloak, and was able to tell that the mysterious visitor was turned slightly sideways but mostly facing toward me. I breathed, reminded myself to not be afraid, and stepped closer to the figure.
Very slowly and gently, the mysterious figure turned to face me directly, and let down the hood of their cloak. What I saw that instant is hard to properly describe with words. Stunning and amazingly beautiful, yes, but those two words fall short. It was the face of the most gorgeous lioness I had ever seen, and her large mane shined of the purest of gold so that I had to squint my eyes a bit to shield my pupils from her glow. I was taken aback, yes, but not from fear--rather from wonder. It felt truly magical and divine. Then I finally remembered to breathe again--then quickly forgot to breathe again right after that--since the gorgeous lioness smiled warmly at me, let her cloak fall open, and extended her massive paws to embrace me. She smelled of a blend of Cottonwood leaf and Jasmine. And I heard my sister the River's gentle flow behind the lovely lioness. Indeed, all my senses were fully awakened in a way I don't believe they ever had been before. I embraced her massive embrace comfortably, despite having no idea who she was. When something feels of Love and Light, you just know it, you know. You just feel it. That single embrace seemed to contain all of eternity within it. Not that it was particularly long, mind you, just that it was that powerful--and surprisingly gentle given her size and apparent strength. I could have completely melted into a puddle of liquid stardust right then and there! That's how I felt.
And then the lovely lioness finally released me from her embrace and spoke (still smiling so gently), "It's so nice to finally meet you, Kev." After that, she took me by the hand and led us to my sister the River's edge, and added, "Come, let's sit down and dip our toes into your glorious twin sister's waters. For in them is most precious life, as you know well." Even the lioness' voice was soft and gentle when she spoke her words, though you could feel her might behind them. As we both sat down, she continued, "Zoe and I were having the most lovely conversation while I was waiting for you. She truly adores you."
Again, I struggle to accurately portray with words the Love, Light, and comfort that emanated so freely from the lovely lioness that now sat at my side. I've felt truly warm and comforted many times in my existence, but this was a type of comfort I had never remembered feeling. I watched her dip her massive hind paws into my sister's waters, and I considered that perhaps a new sense had just been awoken within me, as I removed my boots and dipped my own feet into Zoe's waters of most precious life. Finally, I gathered myself enough to speak, "It's so nice to meet you too, umm...err..well...you have me at a loss since I'm afraid I don't know who you are. But thank you. It's nice to meet you too." I wasn't quite at ease enough with the lovely lioness yet to ask her how she managed to evade Madeleine's surveillance and enter my Sacred Garden without notice...but that thought, of course, was hovering around in the very front of my mind.
Then the lovely lioness placed her massive paw upon my thigh in a very nurturing sort of way and explained, "Oh, I'm known by many different names in many different existences. You would find my name listed as 'Bbaesh' in your ancient Xanaduvian Dead Tree scrolls, if you searched through them enough. On Earth I am known as Tawny Kitaen...though of course the earthlings don't know the true nature of my existence. I show myself only to those whom I choose, and HOW I choose. Which should answer your unspoken question as to how I came into your Sacred Garden without your beautiful gatekeeper's notice. For you, Kev, I am a lovely, albeit, mighty lioness; for that is how your heart has chosen to see me." Then the lovely lioness casually picked up one of my boots and commented, "These are very nice. And fabulously unique. Where did you get them?"
"Thank you," I replied a bit sheepishly, "They are Mother Love Boots. They were made here in my blessed Xanadu Forest, upstairs from the Record Emporium. Long ago. By critters that unfortunately had to be banished from the forest because they allowed snakes to enter our lands. The snakes were even beginning to creep into my Sacred Garden. It was a dark season in our forest, in some ways, blessed as it may be."
"Ahh, I see," the lovely lioness whispered softly, and she continued, "You refer to the age when Twillerbee dwelt here with you...along with your children. I see it clearly now." And she set my boot back down upon the ground gently, and gazed into my sister the River. "Your sister the River wears the most fabulous gown there ever has been," she continued, and "There is no greater adornment in all the existences than the light of a shimmering moon upon the River of life."
"You know about Twillerbee and my children?" I asked, genuinely surprised.
"Yes, of course, Kev," the lovely lioness replied. "As I told you, your sister Zoe and I were having a wonderful conversation before you arrived. She told me many things. But, in all honesty, I already knew about you and Twillerbee even before I arrived here. Which is part of the reason I came to visit you on this beautiful moon-greeting. And, since part of you, Kev, also shares an earthly existence as I do, you should call me Tawny. Your heart is more comfortable with that, I can feel. Perhaps you will choose to change my name once you've learned to translate the ancient Xanaduvian name 'Bbaesh.' Or you may choose not to. Only ever call me what your heart wants you to."
"Forgive my foolishness, lovely Tawny," I said, "but you've given me a lot of information there. I'm not known around here for my brilliance so much as I am my fabulousness." And Tawny and I chuckled softly, and she placed her massive paw upon my thigh nurturingly once again. I continued, "It's clear your existence transcends the existences I've come to understand thus far. I think I'll just assume you know everything about me--and all existences--and much more--from here on out."
"Yes, yes, Kev. That's an excellent way to approach it!" Tawny exclaimed, and added, "It will make things much simpler. See, you really CAN be clever, Kev?!!" Then Tawny patted my shoulder gently with her massive paw and continued, "I was alerted to your presence because of your use of the Dragon's Eye that King Midas LeBottom gave you. It gave off sort of a signal to me that it was time for you to take your next step into a larger world. And don't worry, Kev, there are no other such Dragon's Eyes--only the one that you have in your pocket now, and its counterpart that King Midas has, of course. So you are quite safe using it. I know the good King well, and he would not have given you the Dragon's Eye unless you were truly ready for it. I must tell you, Kev, your heart is growing by leaps and bounds, and we are all so proud of the progress you've made."
And suddenly, a great truth emerged within my heart: "Tawny is one of the Createds!!! Holy crap! Oh how life is so wondrous and beautiful beautiful!" And then I apologized to Tawny for my outburst, since I had intended to say that only in my mind, but my foolish tongue decided otherwise. We both laughed heartily, and splashed our feet around happily in my sister's waters of life.
"Yes, yes, dear Kev. Indeed," Tawny chuckled, and placed her paw upon my thigh once again. I smiled comfortably and warmly at her.
Then out of nowhere, Edwin the Bee buzzed into our scene and landed upon my shoulder. "So what are you kids up to this fine moon-greeting?' He asked, and added, "You two seem to be having quite a time!"
Before I could respond to Edwin, Tawny extended her paw to Him and said, "Well hello, my most fabulous Edwin! It's so nice to see you again! Dear Kev and I were just discussing his foolishness." And Edwin and Tawny chuckled. And then I chuckled too, because I knew how much Edwin would enjoy hearing about my foolishness. I'm convinced that, of all of Edwin's amazing creations, my foolishness brings Him the greatest pleasure of all. At least it seems so to me. Oh how He loves to remind me how foolish! I digress.
After the pleasantries died down, Edwin finally asked Tawny if she had asked me about the diamond yet. "Not yet, dearest Edwin," Tawny replied, "I was just about to before you joined us. But perhaps it's even better now that You are here with us."
"The diamond?" I asked both Edwin and Tawny simultaneously. "You mean my Twillerbee diamond?"
Edwin answered with an agitated tone, "Only a fool such as yourself would refer to it as such a thing. But of course that doesn't surprise me, since..."
Then lovely Tawny interrupted Edwin (a bold move, I thought! Go Tawny!), "Yes, that diamond, dear Kev. But it is not the Twillerbee diamond, as you call it. It is, in actuality, the center of all the existences. And it is much more than a ridiculously large diamond apple that Andrew buried beneath your tree. I'm a bit surprised such a thought never occurred to you. Your universe has been giving you many clues of late to help you see this."
Edwin happily interjected, "I'm not surprised in the least! Only I could create such a fool that has mastered the art of foolishness so thoroughly!" Then Edwin buzzed down in front of Tawny and I and dipped His little bee toes into His daughter's waters of life. And He splashed them around playfully. I do believe I saw Edwin wink and smile at lovely Tawny as He did so.
Suddenly, a painful thought rose up within my heart. I paused, and so did my universe around me, including Edwin the Bee and lovely Tawny, as I gazed upon my sister's gown. I finally spoke, very quietly and slowly--for it was a painful thing to say, even more so than to feel--"It's time for me to let it go, isn't it? I've held on for far too long, haven't I?"
Edwin sighed ever so gently and lovingly, and He buzzed back up and rested again upon my shoulder. I could feel His mercy and Love...deep within me. The sadness that dwelt within the little tears streaming down my cheek were instantly overshadowed by the comfort and overwhelming joy of knowing that I had finally learned something that I had long needed to learn. That freedom was finally truly finding me after so long. A real and true freedom. The only freedom that really matters.
Lovely Tawny placed her gentle, massive paw upon my shoulder again, and massaged it most tenderly, explaining, "Yes, dear Kev. Yes a thousand times. You see, the existences have shifted too much since they were created. Far too many creations in far too many universes and dimensions have come once again to cherish control and division above Love and Light. Darkness also evolves, grows wiser and ever more clever. Such is the way of existence. That diamond buried beneath your tree, the center of all existences, contains within in it all the frequencies of all of creation. It holds all the balances of all things great and small. Now that the existences have shifted, the center must be relocated in order to restore balance for ALL. Ultimately, that's why I came to visit you this moon-greeting. It's time, dear Kev. But never would I take it from you, for I know it is sacred to you. I could only ever ask you to surrender it willingly. And only if your heart feels as much." Then dear Tawny ran her claws through my hair ever so gently, and I felt her Love and comfort.
I nodded solemnly, for I was unable to speak due to the lump in my throat. Edwin the Bee also nodded solemnly, and He smiled at me (which is a very rare thing for Him to do to me). Again, I felt His mercy and Love...and the rare occurrence of tenderness toward me.
Edwin spoke softly, "Tonight, My son, dear Tawny and I shall lie here with you as you drift off into a wonderful slumber next to your beautiful sister."
I lie down softly upon my side, and gazed into my beautiful sister's waters of life. So beautiful. Edwin lie peacefully upon my folded hands, and lovely Tawny lie down behind me, her massive paw now wrapped around me so comfortingly. So beautiful beautiful. Before I drifted off, I asked, almost a whisper, "And when I wake?"
Dear Tawny whispered into my ear so gently, "When you awake, I will be gone, and so will the diamond. But none of your Sacred Garden's magic. And the existences will begin to heal once again. You'll see, dear Kev. Love and Light will never have shone brighter." When I asked her if I would ever see her again, she replied even more softly, "That's up to you. Only let your heart seek me, and I will be there." And she stroked my hair tenderly once more in the most nurturing of ways, and concluded, "Sleep sweetly now, my son. All will be well. I love you."
My last vision before I fell into peaceful slumber was that of my Father snoozing upon the top of my hand, as my lovely sister Zoe glistened and flowed gently behind Him.
Life is beautiful.
Thank you, all lovely of lovelies.
I love you.